Saturday, May 7, 2011


Hiatus :  Noun: A pause or gap in a sequence, series, or process.

I wont be around for a bit. It could be a couple of days, a week, or maybe even two. I don't know. I'll be back when I can write here again and have something to say. I'll be back when this stuff with Cael is either solved or not so damn terrifying anymore. Maybe when we find out what's happening I'll need somewhere to write about it and will be back. It's all up in the air right now.

But I will be back.

Right now I need to focus on myself, on Cael, on pushing forward and making sure we'll be okay. That's where I need to be centered. That's where I'll be.

Because he means the world to me.

Because I worry about him.

Because I can take his anger and frustration and know it's coming from somewhere else.

Because I hate the word "luff" yet use it everyday for him because that's all I'm permitted to say and can't not say it.

Because he owns me, every part of me.

That's where I'll be.

P.S. EdenFantasys post will probably continue unless I shut them off. They are scheduled a few weeks in advance. That is if I'm gone that long.

P. P. S. Over the last while I've received comments and emails. A lot of emails. They're concerned I'm in an abusive relationship, some more persistent than others. Some out right rude that I have banned immediately without posting the comment or reading further in the email.  That will be done when I return. There will be a disclaimer put up, and anybody that goes against it will more than likely be blocked from commenting or my receiving their mail. I'm tired of it. Tired of reiterating. Tired of being called naive and stupid. Yes, YOU who sends me several emails a day has ruined it for anybody else with good intentions that isn't a ginormous cunt. Congrats. 


  1. Good luck on your journey. I hope to see a post that is positive stating things are good soon :)