I? Need to get serious about losing weight. Why? Because I have been putting Cael off because of it. It's no longer allowed.
I realized this when I finally clued in to something. This weekend he could be having sex with a girl at any given moment. I don't know what he's doing. BUT! I am not jealous of the girl. Nope. I am jealous of his friends because they get to spend time with him when I can't and that fucking sucks.
I want to be around him and spend time with him soo badly. I want to be able to touch him and talk to him. This? Fucking sucks. That is all.